Up and down day

There is not a better way to describe today other than up and down. We started the morning with a call to the hospital and received some good news. Wyatt's jaundice levels were down as compared to yesterday. Yeah! We were riding pretty high.

Then down again. We went outside to get on the shuttle and use our cell phones (we have no service in the hotel) and my dad had left a message that Noah was sick. He had thrown up in the bed last night and was very pitiful. We called him and he cried saying he missed us so much. We have never been away from him when he is sick but I know my dad will take great care of him. It just broke my heart hearing him cry.

We got to the hospital and Wyatt was doing great. We got to hold him and feed him with a bottle and he was being very successful with it. We were up again. Then down. The doctor came in and told us that Wyatt only has one kidney and that it is shaped like a horseshoe. It may cause complications down the road but right now it is ok. His kidney seems to be working because he peed all over us this morning while we tried to change his diaper. Still the news really worried me and Jeremaymand it weighed heavily on us especially since this shape of kidney is prone to kidney stones. Just great.

We had lunch and went back up to spend more time with him. I've been able to provide some breastmilk for him but not enough just yet so that he only has breastmilk. They are supplementing my supply with formula and that makes me sad. But I'm being realistic too. No mother could produce what they are asking me to produce this early on. So we are pretty up after spending the afternoon with him. He had a few episodes where he gets so comfortable in our arms that he forgets to breathe. It scares me and Jeremy but Noah had these episodes too. The doctor came back in this afternoon and told us that he would be transferred out of intensive care and sent to the special care nursery here at Duke, probably tomorrow. We know this means he is really getting better and that he isn't critical at all anymore. Otherwise they wouldn't move him. We are really up now. So we decide to leave the hospital on the up-swing.

So now I'm resting at the hotel, and trying to put my feet up. They are so swollen. They don't look anything like my pre-pregnancy feet, but I'm working on them. I know that I haven't been taking care of myself like I should. It has just been so stressful and scary. I miss Noah so much but I know Wyatt needs me more now. And Jeremy and I are so homesick. We just want to go home. It was hard being away today knowing that my grandmother's funeral was happening this afternoon. So it has been an up and down day. Please pray that my milk supply comes in for Wyatt, that my swelling will go down, Noah feels better, and that we only get good news tomorrow. Thanks for all your many prayers and words of encouragement. They mean so very much to us right now.